Lena Dunham marked three years of sobriety by sharing a selfie and a reflective post on Instagram over the weekend.
The former Girls star, 34, took to Instagram to share a photo of herself wearing a knitted beanie as she posed for the camera while looking happy and healthy, which she compared to a selfie she took during her treatment in rehab.
Her post came as she was being honest with Drew Barrymore about overcoming her addiction to anti-anxiety pills, along with other health issues.
Lena Dunham marked three years of sobriety by sharing a selfie and reflective post on Instagram over the weekend
In her Instagram post, the star wrote: ‘So I have been sober for 3 years now. These aren’t words that I never thought to say, because these aren’t words that I * thought * I * needed * to say …
‘[B]From the moment I started this trip (sobriety is a trippy trip for sure) I was focused on 3 years, as if it was this magical train that would have kind of carried me far enough away from the me that I was when I used – a bad me, a sad me, a just not good enough me.
‘This is me today (in a hat knitted by my best friend, sober icon @scotlan) and the second photo is the only one I dared to take of myself in rehab …
[A]nd no i don’t look great (i guess you don’t really focus on exfoliating when trying to save your own life?) but i seem like trying pretty hard with this little one forced smile – try something like joy.
Say it all: Her post came as she became candid with Drew Barrymore about overcoming her addiction to anti-anxiety pills, along with other health issues.
“But guess what? We’re worth it even when we’re too tired to try, or when we’re a day or an hour away from our messiest.
“We’re worth it even when we’re right in the middle of it all. If you are caught in a cycle of pain and shame around addiction, you are so far from alone …
[T]there are so many recovering addicts out there who want and NEED to connect with you and will keep it going for you no matter what.
“ Thank you for the love you have shown me over the past 3 years as I moved away from the center of the storm – but in the process I realized it was continually onslaught (this does not matter) AND that the sun is shining too much. It always has been.
Meanwhile, during a new appearance on The Drew Barrymore Show, the New York native spoke candidly about her addiction to anti-anxiety pills.
Start: The Girls star compared her sober photo to a selfie taken while in rehab
Milestone: In her Instagram post, the star wrote: ‘So I’ve been sober for 3 years today. These aren’t words I never thought I would say, because these aren’t words I * needed * to say …
When Drew brought up her own past struggles and the need from the past to ‘numb’ herself when she was going through tough times, Lena replied, ‘Well that’s what I love that doesn’t want to happen. feel good? Feeling good feels good and feeling bad feels bad.
“ And that’s one of the things that I think you know how to jump in without shame, as I was very open that you know, towards the end of my illness, that I developed a severe benzodiazepine dependence on Klonopin.
“ Since I was addicted to anti-anxiety drugs, I was a good old-fashioned pill head. I was like that, that’s what I like to call it because I don’t think there has to be a cute word for it because I don’t think we should be ashamed.
“ It’s like you think about it, feeling bad feeling bad feeling good feeling good, no one should be ashamed of wanting to get out of pain.
“ And what addiction is is like the desire to get out of the pain and not have the tools to get out of the pain, and hardly anyone is getting the proper tools from their parents by their teachers through the infrastructure of this country and how we manage mental health to get out of pain.
Pills: About her pill addition, she said, “I was a good old-fashioned pill head. I was like that, that’s what I like to call it because I don’t think there is a cute word for it ”. Photographed in 2019
“ And I was really lucky to have an amazing family, I’ve been in therapy since I was a kid, but somewhere in my twenties, the weight of my career swept me away, the expectations of what I thought were the expectations.
“The way people looked at me and how I thought I should play. I just remember being so terrified of disappointing people that really for me at first I was like I could take these drugs and they looked more like me, didn’t I a better thing?
“ And then suddenly I realized that I was becoming less and less like myself and suddenly it was like sobriety wasn’t a choice for me, I was being pushed into it because I realized there was no other way I was going to get back to the life I loved.
During the frank and honest conversation, Lena also opened up about a hysterectomy when she was just 31 years old amid a series of health issues.
When Drew informed Lena that she had been following her trip closely, the star said: ‘Well that means so much and something from the start of my health struggle was the idea that I was wrong. keep a secret.
Struggles for health: During the frank and honest conversation, Lena also opened up about a hysterectomy when she was just 31 years old amid a series of health issues. Photographed in 2016
“ Because we are in a culture that views illness as a weakness, we are in a culture that views sick women as hysterical women and we are in a business that does not look kindly at illness, because people work at such a rate with so much money meant that people were either unable to show up or potentially a liability and so I wanted to bring that out into the open.
“ I had known for a long time that I was sick with endometriosis, it caused tremendous pain, health issues, but I also knew that something deeper was going on with my body.
“ So I undertook an exploration and understood that I also had an underlying health condition called Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, a connective tissue disease that causes diffuse musculoskeletal pain and a certain number of other types of random but interrelated symptoms.
“ I also have a form of autoimmune arthritis associated with it and so I also face autoimmune issues at the same time and so it all came together in my 20s to make it a pretty miserable one. , while I was not treating it. , make a pretty miserable health picture, and sort of resulted in a hysterectomy and the removal of one of my ovaries at age 31.
‘Which were you terrifying not just because it was massive surgery, but because I really want to be a mom and I had always thought I was going to do it the traditional way, and I don’t think I had realized how much I was going to mourn this and how intense this process was going to be.
Body: With the hysterectomy, Lena’s physique changed, leading the body-positive screen star to kiss for who she is all the more. Photographed in 2018
“ And I have to say the process of being open about it and writing about it and understanding how many other women, how many other people, how many other couples have mourned this alone and together. was one of the most healing things. I have already experienced it.
With the hysterectomy, Lena’s physique changed, leading the body-positive screen star to kiss all the more for who she is.
She explained, “ One of the big revelations I had as a body after my hysterectomy when I realized I would never be the same again.
“ What’s amazing is when I first went on Girls the amount of criticism I get for my body people were talking about me in a way that I would never say on TV. because they don’t deserve airtime.
“ But then I was between 50 and 60 pounds lighter than now, and I’m looking at this little girl who got these comments about her body. The beauty that comes to me at work, in love, in sex.
“ I have never been denied anything in this life having like a big beautiful curvaceous body because when I kiss her as if I am filling myself with love, that love comes out of me and that love comes back to me. ”
Hit TV show: Lena rose to fame as Hannah Horvath in HBO’s hit comedy Girls