Justin Bieber has opened up about the difficulty of being a young pop star and his past drug use, saying in a new interview that his bodyguards would sneak into his bedroom at night and check his pulse to make sure he was still alive.
“There was a feeling of more and more desire. It was like I had all this success and it was always like: I’m still sad and I’m still in pain. And I still have these unresolved issues. And I thought all success was going to make everything good. And so for me the drugs were a numbing agent to keep going, ”he told GQ magazine.
As Bieber struggled, he had some contact with the law and exhibited erratic behavior. The “Sorry” singer, 27, told GQ that there are people in the industry who “prey on” other people’s insecurities and that makes him angry.
“And then you’re that angry young person who had these big dreams, and then the world hurts you and turns you into this person you don’t want to be,” he explained. “And then you wake up one day and your relationships are f —– and you’re miserable and you’re having all this success in the world, but you’re just like, well, what’s it worth if I ‘I still feel empty inside?
Bieber has said that at times in his career he yearns for a sense of normalcy. The singer described a case where he and his friend hid his passport in hopes of being able to take time off.
“The label is panicking saying, ‘You have to do the’ Today ‘show next week and you can’t find your passport.” It takes a certain number of days to get a new passport. But I was just going to do whatever it takes to be able to be normal then, ”he said.
Bieber eventually admitted to hiding his passport and continued his appearance on the “Today” show.
The singer also opened up to the magazine about his health issues. Last year, he revealed he has Lyme disease.
“To be honest, I’m much healthier, and I’ve had a lot to do,” he said. “I had mono, and I have Lyme disease. But I was also navigating a lot of emotional ground, which had a lot to do with that. And we like to blame a lot of things on other things. Sometimes… it’s often just your own stuff.
Now the pop star credits his relationship with God and his marriage to his wife Hailey to helping him get on a better path.
“My home life was unstable,” Bieber said of finding love with Baldwin. “For example, my home life didn’t exist. I didn’t have a significant person. I didn’t have anyone to love. I didn’t have anyone to devote myself to. But now I have this.”
On his faith, Bieber said he believes God is “grace” and “every time we mess up, he brings us back every time.”
“That’s how I see it. And so it’s like, ‘I made a mistake.’ I won’t dwell on it. I’m not ashamed. But it really makes me want to do better, “he said.