Duffy reveals poignant details of four-week rape trial

Singer Duffy wrote about her horrific rape and kidnapping ordeal, sharing details for the first time.

The 35-year-old Welsh singer-songwriter had already spoken about the incident in February, and said she would not give a face-to-face interview on the ordeal, and chose instead to write in detail on his website.

She details how, for a period of four weeks, she was drugged in a restaurant where she was celebrating her birthday, before being abducted abroad and raped, then brought back by plane where she was held captive in her own House.

“It was my birthday, I was drugged in a restaurant, then I was drugged for four weeks and I traveled to a foreign country,” writes Duffy in a long book called The 5th House.

“I don’t remember getting on the plane and I ended up in the back of a moving vehicle. I was placed in a hotel room and the assailant returned and raped me. I remember the pain and tried to stay conscious in the room after it arrived.

“I got stuck with him for another day, he didn’t look at me, I had to walk behind him, I was a little conscious and withdrawn. I could have been eliminated by him.

“ I was considering fleeing to the next town or city while he was sleeping, but I had no money and I was afraid he would call the police for me, to run away, and maybe they would find me as a missing person ”

“I don’t know how I had the strength to endure those days, I felt the presence of something that helped me stay alive.”

“ I went back with him, I stayed calm and as normal as someone in a situation like this, and when I got home, I sat, dizzy, like a zombie. I knew my life was in immediate danger, he made a veiled confession of wanting to kill me.

“ The assailant drugged me in my own house for the past four weeks, I don’t know if he raped me there during that period, I only remember driving in the car foreign country and the escape that would happen if I fled in the days after that.

“I don’t know why I was not drugged abroad; it makes me think that I was given class A medication and that he could not travel with it.

The star, with the full name of Aimee Anne Duffy, tells how, in the process, she was too terrified to go to the authorities, lest her attacker find her.

She writes: “ After it happened, someone I knew came to my house and saw me on my balcony, looking into space, wrapped in a blanket. I don’t remember going home. The person said that I was yellow and I was like a dead person.

“They were obviously afraid but did not want to intervene, they had never seen anything like it. Subsequently, he did not feel safe going to the police. I felt that if something went wrong, I would be dead and he would have killed me.

“I couldn’t risk being abused or being all over the news during my danger.” I really had to follow my instincts. I told two police officers in various threatening incidents over the past decade that this has been recorded.

She continues, “Once someone threatened to” reveal “my story and I had to tell a police officer what information the person had about me and why the blackmail was so scary.

“The second incident took place when three men tried to enter my house as an intruder, I also told the second police officer about the rape. The rapist’s identity should only be managed by the police, and it’s between me and them.

“The first person I spoke to was a psychologist, months later, a leading expert in the UK on complex trauma and sexual violence.

“I have no idea how lucky I was to find her all these years ago, her beautiful blue eyes, her pink sofa, her huge library, her incredible brain and skills.” Without it, I might not have been successful. I was at high risk for suicide in stride.

“She got to know me, saw me as a person, got to know me and led me. She did it very gently. I couldn’t look her in the eye for the first eight or so sessions, eye contact was something I was struggling with.

“The idea of ​​recovering was almost impossible. Thereafter, I would not see someone, a physical soul, sometimes weeks and weeks and weeks at a time, be alone.

“I would take off my pajamas, throw it into the fire and put on another set. My hair would become so knotted that I wouldn’t brush it, while I was crying, I cut it all.

Explaining his reasons for sharing his poignant story now, Duffy says, “ I share this because we live in a wounded world and I’m no longer ashamed that something hurts me deeply.

“I believe that if you speak from the heart within you, the hearts of others will respond. As dark as my story is, I speak from the bottom of my heart, for my life and that of others, who have suffered in the same way.

“I’m not ashamed to tell you either, I had spent almost ten years completely alone and it still burns me to write it.

“I have to say it, I feel compelled to explain how difficult recovery really was and to finally reveal it. I hope it will comfort you to be less ashamed if you feel alone.

In the end, the singer had to move a total of five times before she started to feel like she had found some semblance of security.

“It took me so long to speak because after I was raped and kept in captivity, I fled,” she writes. “I moved five times in the three years that followed, without ever feeling safe from the rapist, I was on the run for so long.

“I found a place to live, the 5th house, it was not as confined as the other houses, where I cried silently, in townhouses or apartments.

“This place where I would spend lonely years to find stability to recover, I had stopped running and moving. I felt that he could not find me in the 5th house, I felt safe. I feel safe now. ”

While the star insists that she will now “ return to calm ” after stepping forward to share the details of her traumatic experience, she did not rule out the possibility of returning to music at some point. given in the future.

However, his main goal in the present is to put an end, at least to some extent, to his ten-year anxiety.

“I can now leave this decade. Where the past belongs. Hopefully, “what happened to Duffy’s questions,” now you know … and I’m free, “she concludes.

In her original post detailing the horrific incident, Duffy revealed that she had been detained and raped in an emotional message which has since been deleted.

The singer said she wanted to share her experience with fans “so many times”.

The pop star, originally from Nefyn in Gwynedd, Wales, said she did not want to show the world the “ sadness in her eyes ”.

Posing on Instagram, she said, “ You can only imagine how many times I have thought about writing this. The way I would write it, how I would feel afterwards.

“Well, I don’t really know why it’s the right time, and what seems exciting and liberating for me to speak. I can not explain it. Many of you are wondering what happened to me, where did I go and why? ”

She said that she had confided in a journalist over the summer and that he “felt amazing to finally be able to talk” about her experience.

“The truth is, and believe me, I’m fine and safe now, I was raped and drugged and held captive for a few days. Of course, I survived. The recovery has taken time. There is no light way to say it.

“But I can tell you that over the past decade, thousands and thousands of days when I committed to wanting to feel the sun again in my heart, the sun is shining now.

“Wondering why I didn’t choose to use my voice to express my pain?” I didn’t want to show the world the sadness in my eyes. I asked myself, how can I sing from the heart if it is broken? ”

She went on to say that her heart was “not breaking slowly” and said that she would soon post an oral interview and that all questions would be answered.

“I have a sacred love and a sincere appreciation for your kindness over the years. You were friends.

“I want to thank you for that x Duffy Please respect, this is a gentle gesture that I must make, for myself, and I do not want any intrusion into my family. Please support me to make this experience a positive one. “