Since 2017, Billie Eilish took one day a year to sit with Vanity Show for a Time Capsule interview, where she talks about her career, her personality and the changes she’s seen over the past 12 months. When she arrived on set on October 18, 2021, a transformation was evident. Earlier this year, the 19-year-old pop star swapped her signature multi-colored neon hairstyles for a stark platinum blonde.
She debuted with the new look on a Brit Vogue cover that showed her dressed as an Old Hollywood pin-up, but assured everyone that she had not lost her ability to take risks. “It’s not a new style, it’s something I wore,” she said VF, “And then I’ll wear it another day.” “Its new motto is” Everything is allowed. Period. – but she pointed out that the underlying motivations aren’t too far removed from her old look. “Literally the thing I’ve preached on since I started is wear whatever you want. Dress however you like. Do whatever you want. Speak as you want. Be whatever you want. That’s all I said.
For Eilish, the changes of the past year are more than superficial. “I’m starting to have an adult life that’s new to me, and very exciting, and I’ve had new experiences and new people and a lot of love.” It also meant convincing a fashion house to stop using fur, get two more tattoos, and finally figure out how to deal with recognition in public.
“Before, my attitude was like, ‘I can’t go out, I can’t go here, I can’t go there. “… I couldn’t go to a park or go for coffee, it freaked me out outside. But last year I opened up to it,” she said, adding that becoming a blonde helped. “If I did. be careful and that I don’t try to be in front of everyone that’s cool…. I didn’t used to do that because my pride was too much. I was like, ‘I only want to be seen if I look like myself. ‘ So I would never wear anything normal.
Behind her new bangs, Eilish is projecting calm wisdom this time around, implying that Happier than ever is not just the title of his recent second album. It also reflects his current feelings about life. She admits that some of her responses in previous interviews may not have described the full complexity of her emotions.
“It’s just me trying to convince myself that I didn’t care.” Before, I was just filled with these inspirational, ready-to-use quotes that I didn’t even agree with most of the time, ”she said, thinking back to previous responses when she said she didn’t feel any pressure. “I was like, ‘I’m overwhelmed, I hate it, everybody wants something from me, I got nothing to give them, fuck shit.'”
Now she feels more confident, in part because she realizes that it doesn’t matter if some people don’t like her. “I feel a lot of pressure, but back then I was loved more – I was kind of loved overall, to be honest. And I was scared because I wanted to keep this love, ”she says. “But now tons of people hate me, so I’m not worried anymore. If you love me, you love me, and if you don’t love me, you don’t love me.
His mother, Maggie Baird, always made a cameo at the end of Time Capsule interviews, but this year Eilish talks at length about their closeness. “I guess I look to my mom the most, honestly, during this time,” she says. “She’s new to it, just like me, which is fame and that kind of world, but my mom has a really good way of seeing the world and she’s the primary person I go to. Literally maybe the only person I go to.
Thinking back to the 2020 interview, where she was battling the effects of the pandemic on the music industry, she had sympathy for herself. “This girl was going through an identity crisis, oh, my God,” she said. “You can see it in my eyes.”
Now that she can play again, she understands why. “I was really breaking down not being able to do shows because that’s what makes me feel the best that I am,” she says. “I can be in a bad mood before a show, then walk off stage and I’m completely rejuvenated. “