Billie Eilish has spoken of the concept of love as “really scary” to her.
The American megastar, 20, has come under fire for her relationship with 31-year-old neighborhood leader Jesse Rutherford, with some questioning the age difference between them.
After first catching public attention in 2015 with her debut single Ocean Eyes, she released her number one albums When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go? and happier than ever.
The American singer-songwriter showed off his freshly dyed blonde hair and a new look on Instagram last year, after transforming his previous signature style of baggy clothes and bright green hair.
She told Highsnobiety magazine: “People thought of me as this 15-year-old kid, a kid who wore this kind of clothes, looked this kind of way, acted this kind of way, said this kind of way. I felt like I couldn’t change.
“That’s why I went so far to the other side. I was trying to prove, ‘Hey, f*** you guys, I can do whatever I want.’
“I feel sexier when I dress male. I didn’t feel sexy for a second being blonde. When I was blonde, people treated me differently. People completely changed their behavior (around of me).
Eilish told the magazine that the internet makes it difficult to speak candidly about “stuff like that.”
Talking about love as a theoretical concept, she said, “Falling in love is hard for me. It’s a scary thing, my love. It’s really scary. We’re trying to figure it out, man.